That is why I typed in a bunch of random journal names in my space bar so that her journal will disappear. As for the past year it had been a very important journal that I checked every day. But now that it is not there.. well there is a empty space that is ever-numb. But it is better now that it is numb then rather aching with feeling.
If I find myself typing out her journal, well then.. I know I can catch myself.. but it's harder with the click of a mouse.
Nap-time for me.