But yes, a month should be taken, in which I don't RP.. that way I can gather a certain clarity around myself. That way I can properly heal. If I have not healed by then, yes I will take as much time as I need to. It's good for me.. and I can still talk to friends, and grow closer to them, but I do not need muses trying to front for me, where I confuse their feelings with my own and vice versa.
What cued me in to this was yesterday morning when I was playing with Vincent and Jin.. well I suddenly got the impression that I could not -breathe-. And I don't want that... that is when I knew I just was -not- ready.
When your heart is tied up to something or someone so strongly, if you undo the ties too quickly, you will get knots that press against your heart, then you are automatically forcing something. Going slow is the way to do it.. because that way if you are gentle and thorough, you can untie those fragile knots.. and leave your heart still intact.
Wow, a serious post. I've a feeling this journal will get more of them.