Enjoy it kurohyou ^_~
Yes, Citan was thrilled.. he's even more thrilled for me to even be -posting- it on my LJ
Citan: Angst.. bah. *goes back to his workshop and holes himself up there*
By the time you read this, all that shall linger of mine is ash and memory. Do not mourn too much for me, my dearest father. I subconsciously -knew- what I was getting into when you led me into your bedroom and I can never really blame you for that. I had -wanted- to be tempted, gods knew I had only wanted you since the moment you had stepped into the cathedral and I had been there, sweeping the entry-way.
But death, it is not such a sad thing for me. How can I complain from my fall from grace when but for a few moments I was able to touch the hands of my god. That was blasphemous yes, and I realize it. But I could not help writing it for it sprang to my soul, my dearest father. I am certainly hell-bound but one touch, one sacriligious kiss shall make it all worth it.
The inquisitors asked me if you had tempted me, I had to lie, my father and say that I tempted you with my supple young body and that you were only a man that you could not resist. It was a lie yes, but after one sin, committing another one does not seem so terrible. I knew they would understand the temptation of the flesh and no harm would come to you. I wanted to protect you, and in doing so I have.
When dawn rises, I will be lead out to the pyre and then tied to the stake.. I will show that the fires of hell will not bother me.. I will not cry, shall not flinch. I will take the flames licking against me and I shall prove to all that I do not regret what I have done with you, to cry would be to be sorry and I am not that. I do not regret a single moment with you. You, father Harcourt who showed me so much, who showed me that a heaven could exist in the hell of my life. You gave me but a taste but it was enough.
Goodbye my Father. My only temptation, My only love.
[Edit]: I think that Citan told Father Harcourt to -wait- to read the letter because he did not want Father Harcourt to throw himself up onto the flames. It was a stalling tactic. *pats Citan* Clever.... just suckerpunk him in the gut -after- the fact.