April 23rd, 2013

Sakura☆When I was only seventeen

: Sometimes it's hard keeping up here :

First of all, I appreciate everyone who has stuck with me; I know I'm a bad blogger type but then I've had alot on my plate in regards to work. Work has been phenomenal. I've learned so much and I'm definitely on the right track.. I know every single job in the warehouse and I've gained so many friends as well as gotten to know other people that I normally wouldn't of. Every weekend is filled with some new activity or hanging out with friends. In fact on friday my friend Shauna is coming over and we're going to eat bacon and watch Hetalia. Woohoo.

Also I've been questioning if I'm really a lesbian or if I'm bisexual. I've hung out with some guys that I've been sort of digging so I don't know at all. But I'm not going to label myself anymore, and I'm certainly not going to jump in. There was this one girl way back in the day however she started to scare me with the clingyness. I mean she was planning our life together and I just wasn't comfortable with that, or moving that fast. The thing is, that I've never been on my own, I've always relied on someone else and I just don't want to do that. I want companionship but it's definitely NOT important to me. Definitely not the forefront in my mind.

I miss RP and I've been sort of putting myself out there but it's nothing compared to how much I used to RP. It's not the be-all-end-all to my existance, just something enjoyable that I'd like to do every once in a while.

All in all, I have my priorities set out. I'm on an excellent path to growth and the healing process has been going well. I rarely think about what was anymore and that's an excellent thing, it's helped me to move on with my life.

Six months ago, I saw a bleak wall with nothing to show for it. But now.. I see the light and can feel it's warmth. Spring always follows winter, you know.

Thank you LJ-land for listening!

BTW Blue Exorcist is SO CUTE! Shiemi = ADORABLE!