November 30th, 2011

Rena☆Here we come now

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I called up the animal shelter and they are going to call me back. I got the feeling that Todd was in a hurry to open up my room so that he could get boxes down, so I'm just going to have to do what I have to do. Sooner rather then later. I've already made a promise to myself that I'm going to volunteer at the animal shelter two nights a week, or try to.. so that I can at the very least do something back. Even if it's just a little bit to help. I have to think about what's good for Lala even if it's just destroying me right now. I have to think to myself, 'at least she's being dropped off by someone who loves her and wants the best for her, and not carried in due to some abuse that I've seen other pet owners inflict upon their animals.' and that's where I don't get animal cruelty, to me, it's just as bad as child abuse, because a pet.. much like your children, rely on you for their basic needs. It's just atrocious and it fills me with yuck, just as the neglect that Lala faced before coming to live with me, it just makes me shudder.

Let's see, I want to talk about something cheerful.. just so that I don't appear to be such a downer. Ahahaha, so anyways the previews for "Once Upon A Time" appeared on Walmart TV for the longest time, so I checked it out, and man it's pretty good. My favorite fairy tale princess has always been Snow White.. so I love the take on her character. But it's a rather brilliant premise. Granted the costumes aren't showy or anything, but I think that for an ABC series (and not one on HBO or Showtime which specializes in luscious scenary and costumes) it's not that bad. I'm still waiting though for my Game of Thrones TV series, but they don't release that until March. Just a little something to look forward to,

Operation get rid of Todd is coming along nicely (that was a joke). Except I don't think he enjoys talking to me anymore. I just get this subtle air of hostility from him.. or perhaps it's just the depression on his end, or my end, speaking. I get the feeling that every time me and Shu has an argument, he's like laughing to himself or something and it just makes me want to punch him in the face and tell him to mind his own business, because what is between me and Shu is between me and Shu and I'll be damned if he knows every time we have a fight or a tiny little upset. (which yes makes it awkward, because he comes down and sees me crying.. well you know what, it's just something that gets on my nerves.. I'm vulnerable to Shu only.. if anyone else sees me cry... it's like instant negative points on my end.) I'm hoping that now that he will be out of our personal space, that every time me and Shu have a fight or a disagreement, he won't know about it. Once again, none of his damned business.

It's just been a week of high emotions on my end. I can't wait until it just panes out. I am sorry, my mind has just run the gamut of emotions for the past couple of weeks. I mean change is a good thing, and most of the things happening are positive but there are just obstacles that I need to face personally until I can get to the future.

Well I'm done now. I hope you all have a good day friendslist and even though I doubt most of you guys read it, to the ones who did. Thank you. ^_^ someone typing it out makes it so much better.. you know, it gets it all off my chest and despite the fact that I never know who's reading it, it's like I guess mind-vomiting is good for the soul.