You know.. I always pick a song that represents break-ups of sorts.
With Mel it was "Midnight Sun" by Duran Duran.
However this one.. the official song in my eyes is "I've been losing you" by A-ha. This apart of the healing process, apart of the closure for me emotionally-wise. I never delete songs that I come to recognize with someone that I once loved.. because the memories are as important to me as the closure.
But this is helping me to let go.. and I need that.
I woke up, filled out my application for NAF and I am going to run it down this afternoon with all my pertinent information. Including ID cards and the whatnot. Hopefully I get that daycare job that I've been wanting. I turn to the side and I realize that my cats have gotten into the marshmellows. Which is no doubt not good for them.. damn it. X_x.
I also unplugged the cellphone since we have to leave it on in case Alexi gets recalled into work. Damn not having a real phone but we were paying 70 dollars for a phone we didn't use on TOP of cell phone service.. that was just kinda.. wasteful. There are disadvantages to cell phones of course. -_- (Like they have to be charged..) And trading in our own cell phone for a camera phone, it takes alot ofwill power for me to leave off the camera. *it's so tempting* But you know if you use the camera all the time, then it just sort of goes out with power.
I have morning breath so I am going to go brush my teeth and then I am going to drink a nice long thing of water.
~What's playing on your MP3 playlist right now? I don't care what it is.. just take that song and send it to onewingedhyu @ gmail.com via yousendit . This is to encourage the sharing of music which is all well and good because I am a music whore. Are you a music whore too? Post this on your journal.. and see what types of music your friend's send you.~
One of these memes have not gone around in a while. *hee's* I thought I'd ressurect it.
Title:You Spin Me Right Round by Dead or Alive Genre: 80s Club/Techno Comments: Who doesn't like this song? I remember being afraid of how easy it is to get this song stuck in your head. I know many times I sang it out loud, I think it was because my Uncle Joel absolutely adored this group. Not to mention back in the day the lead singer was kinda cute. He pulled off make-up better then than he does now. So just groove with the 80s vibes.. I can guarentee you shall find yourself dancing to this song. Wow, I sure miss the 80s music.. *is a sad sad person*
Remember if you download, then by all means comment to tell me you nabbed it, and if by any chance it says that the link expired or is broken, then prod me in comments so that I can re-upload it.
For those concerned, I will not be making any sort of statements. I am bowing out of this drama. Because I am sick and tired of it and it is preventing me from moving on. Just as people told their sides, so did I tell my side. Everyone is entitled to tell their side. I promised that I would not try to contact certain people, and I will not. Because I made a promise and I will not break it. I am getting on with my life because that's the only thing to do. The sooner that everything dies down, the better. I do not regret what I had in the past, but if I look back then I feel like I will turn to salt. If you stare at wounds, they will not heal, you have to get up, go to the doctor and get the medicine, cure, etc. That is what I am doing right now, just as I hope that is indeed what Kuro is doing.
I am not perfect, I have never proclaimed to be perfect.
I am doing what is necessary to think about me right now.... I do realize that I cannot love anyone until I learn to love myself. I realize that.. and I am going to work on it. For the future. But I do not need to be cast down into the mire of bad feelings that I felt a week ago. She is getting on with her life, and I will get on with mine.
If you are truly concerned for me, you will pray to the goddess and send my name up to her and then move on. Since you have no direct route to my life anymore, that is really all you can do. This is the absolute last I shall post on the matter from my end. Thank you.
Doctor's orders decree that I hit the sack. And so I shall.. so I am making an early start of it tonight. Sleep is for the weak, but right now I am very weak and drained. So everyone, have fun.. party hard and when sleep is sought, I hope you have a good one. ^_^d. So now I head for the sleeping pills and I pray that I will wake up feeling refreshed and renewed.
"As you drift into the gauzy realm of dreams May you take comfort in the thought that you are safe For it only takes a fraction of a second For all of this to change"