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Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered

jyuufish


"Cause I'll be lighting fires for you.."

~I'm there in the Light when you need me~


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Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered
jyuufish
Michelle and I are talking over AIM right now... and we are having a heart to heart about the situations.  And I am feeling good about this conversation.  I might move on, but sometimes it is better to take a few steps backward to assess that which has happened and while I could not do anything to mend the friendship that Kuro and I had.. I can at least attempt to do it with those that I left behind wrongfully.

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Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered
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Because everyone is doing it.. so why not myself.

       

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

                Bang the girl who lives next door.
               

Get your resolution here


       


Ohhhh~KAY...

Considering the girl next door is like 12..  that's just.. wrong.

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Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered
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I'm feeling very good right now..  Good with myself.. good with just everything.

I will be able to go into work tomorrow with a smile.

Shahni, Michelle and Rowan are doing wonders for my mood and on Monday I am going to go into NAF and fill out an application for a job on base.  Perhaps a secretarial position.  Everything is looking up.. and in a year.. I have no doubt that I will be completely independant.  Yosh!

Still Breathing by Duran Duran just came on.

That is what I'm doing.  I'm still breathing.  One day at a time.

~New for 2005~
Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered
jyuufish
You know.. 

The problem with having many shared friends is the fact that she is going to run into me on friend's page anyways.  If she does not think I am going to be mature about it and be courteous to respect her wishes on the no contact thing, I do not mind.  However I would just like to say that fox_reed's intentions for adding me to her personal journal were pure and stemmed from the fact that I wanted to open up to Fox and I did not want to allow barriers to get in the way like I have been doing.  I never intended anything, and while I am not healed yet, this new year has made me feel good.. and as dissonanceburn pointed out, how you feel on New Years Day sort of symbolizes how you will feel the rest of the year... and I feel pretty damn good about myself.  Better then I felt last year.. that's for certain.

I will never do anything to bad mouth someone I was very much in love with.  I will not even do it in locked posts.  Hell the only filters I have are Kurohyou Only and Dizzy and Kuro only.. so anything that I write, she could read -anyways.

Despite what happened, despite everything.. she was a very special person to be for so very long.  And I would do nothing to taint the memories.  I am certainly not going to do it to her like I tried to do with other people.  That was part of my resolution.. and being offered a second chance, meant the most to me.  Because I did not feel like I deserved it.  That Michelle could take me back as a friend.. well this time I am not screwing it up.

Did I just rant.. yes I did. *gets off my soapbox*

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Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered
jyuufish
Daily Download

Title: Tears of Pearls by Savage Garden
Genre:  Current.. definitely 90s
Comments:  Very good song, it is kinda angsty.  This song though, I'm pretty sure that everyone has heard it.  Or perhaps I am just exaggerating the popularity of this song.  Damn good imagery in this song, Darren Hayes has a way with words.  And there I go again, having to surpress my urge to spell it "darryn" mainly because in one of my novels, a guy's name was spelled that way and he was my favorite gay guy ever.  I loved him.  X_x  Oh but that is so random that it is not even funny.  Enjoy the music!

Remember if you download, then by all means comment to tell me you nabbed it, and if by any chance it says that the link expired or is broken, then prod me in comments so that I can re-upload it.