January 17th, 2002

Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered

SURVEY TIME

~YOU~
What does your name mean?: I have never looked up the name Nia.. however Tanya means "Fairy Queen" *snickers* I remember when I used to call my friend Athena a fairy back in high school, she would snicker and go, "Well you are the Queen of em all" It is a warm fuzzy memory
How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?): Honestly it varies according to who I am hanging around with. Around Alexi, well I am always going to act like a sixteen year old. However around his parents and older people, I tend to come accross as very mellow. Let's just say my personality is mutable.. I am essential what the perciever wants me to be.
Describe yourself in 5 words: Complex, Sappy, Introspective extrovert, mutable
What are your worst qualities: I am stubborn, I get depressed easily, I have martyristic tendancies, I worry too much and I tend to analyze things til I am sick of em.
What are your best qualities: Don't ask me! *eeps* Because I don't wanna tout my own flute.. which brings me to the question.. can flutes be touted? How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?: 20 minutes.. just give me time to get dressed in my BDUs.. run to the bathroom and then make my bed. Maintenance here is low because I don't wear makeup. And I take my showers -before- I stumble into bed in the morning.

~SLEEP~
Do you dream at night?: I dream and I even have a dream journal.. though I think the last entry was a -long- time ago.. I record the especially vivid ones.
Do you remember your dreams?: Most of my dreams I remember though some just fade on into oblivion.. which is good.
Describe one: One of my favorite dreams to date, me and my grandmother and cousins were traveling through germany in a blue bus.. and we drove -right- by Neuschwanstien Castle. I wanted to get out and go explore because damn that was my favorite castle however my grandmother kept driving and I sat there with my face glued to the back window, saying "Hey, you missed the turnoff." Finally we stopped at a 7-11 and I go in and get a dyhadrated slurpy and while my cousins and my grandmother are using the restroom I make off with the bus and go back to Neuschwanstien. I go on the tour however my cousins (who magically turned into little evil imps) keep re-arranging the stair so I cannot properly follow the tour guide.. then I woke up kinda angry at my cousins for no apparent reasons. One Pillow or Two?: Well I have one pillow which I use for my head and then I have a chibi pillow which is Alexi's which I stole that I use to snuggle.. Oh yes I also back at home have a body pillow.. I miss it.. that is great fun to flop on.

~SCHOOL~
Do you like school?: I liked it. To me school was nothing more then social hour... college too.. I remember when I would ditch college to hang out at the mall with Basil. I even had a crush on him til I found out he was 16. (Imagine that.. *falls over*)
Why/why not?: Because I did hang out with a nice group of individuals.. no preps, jocks or cheerleaders for me. I remember when me and Chris Armstrong held Terminator Night at my house.. even invited Matt Cross (my BF at the time) and had pizza.. yum yum.. High School was sweet.. College was sweet too. (Cept for the last semester)
What's your fave subject?: English followed by T.A I liked being T.A becuase the kids were so adorable and I love kids. So many kids came home to their parents saying they were gonna marry "Miss Tanya" *falls over*
Most hated subject?: Math, unless it is Consumer Math, is a pointless waste of time.
Do you have a fave teacher?: Mrs. Howard rocked because she let me sit at the back of the class and write all english period.

~FRIENDS~
Do you have heaps of friends?: Yes, heaps of friends piled in my closet, waiting for me to bury them because they pissed me off.. J/k.. actually I try to keep intimate friends down to a few.. close to a few but friendly to all.. unless you just plain piss me off then I will ignore your pathetic guts
Do you have a best friend?: Best friends, nah.. I have soulmates.. people that know my soul as well as their own. Jesse, Viv.. maybe even Alexi. Soulmates are people not so easily gotten rid of unlike best friends.. they come and go. Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?: Online it is girls that I have more of.. offline it is guys. Wierd.. yes well most of the girls I know RL are exceedingly shallow.
Do you ever get annoyed at any friends?: Very frequently. I don't get annoyed with Alexi very often.. there are very few people that can stay around me for a 24 hour period and not escape my annoyance.
Have you ever lied to a friend?: I am honest but I am also tactful.. of course I have told a few lies but that is because I didn't want to hurt the person involved.
Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend?: If my friend was going out with a guy that I liked... well hands off.. I hate conflict, which is why I constantly try to avoid it.

~FAMILY~
Do you like your parents?: Hell no! I do not like them and I am so thankful that their autocratic rule over my life is through.
Ever run away from home?: I had no reason to.. I might of run away for a half a day when I was 7 but I came back because it was almost dinner and my grandmother had bought ice cream for dessert.
Ever thought about it?: No, only thing I really thought about was death n' sex.
Do you have any siblings?: I have a step brother from my dad's current wife and I have a half sister that I haven't seen since I was 3 years old.
Do you feel your parents spoil you?: Anything -but- spoil me.
Do you not get along with any of your family?: I get along with my Aunt Cathy but that is about it. She is really cool, I used to not like her though however tribulation makes strange bedfellows.
Do you have big family get togethers ever?: Nah, the Warrens are not really.. sociable. My opinion.. well Warrens by blood are stuck up with all that royal friggin english blood that we possess.

~RELATIONSHIPS~
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I have a husband.. is that the same thing? *lol*
If so, are you in love with them?: No, I married him because I was bored on a saturday afternoon.. of course I am head over heels in love with him.
Do they love you?: I am pretty confident. *hee's*
How long have you been together?: A year 4 months and 16 days.
Ever done something stupid to impress them?: I don't think I ever pushed myself to stupidity unless you count the first time I got drunk and I told everyone in the room that I wanted to "strip off Alexi's clothes" *snickers*
Do you find it romantic or hurtful?: I find love to be comforting. It isn't all shits n' giggles, it isn't all about flowers and love songs, it isn't about wanting to slit your wrists and die.. love is.. being yourself around the person you care about and them not laughing at you... it is sharing vulnerabilities.. aww. I sap too much.

~Sex~
Ever had sex?: Yup.. and I am going through Alexi withdrawels right now. *blahs*
Do you believe that a person shouldn't have sex before marriage?: Quite honestly If you are going to be riddled by guilt having sex before marriage then it is better to wait.. however to each his own.
Believe in casual sex?: Sex is not something you give lightly, I am a firm believer in waiting til the right person.. trust should be involved.. in casual sex there is no trust.. only instincts.
When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity?: I lost my Virginity October 1st 2000. I did not plan to lose it but I looked into Alexi's eyes and I saw something eternal there... quite honestly my first time was everything that I wanted it to be, and it was my reward for not giving it to just -anyone-.
Did you regret it?: With Alexi.. never ever have I regretted it even for a minute.

~Religion~
Do you have a religion?: I do not have religion, I have something to believe in.
Do you practice it i.e go to church?: I practice it when I have the time.. I always try to make a -little- time for ritual, meditation, praise of the goddesses name.
Do you believe in God?: I believe in the god and the goddess.
Do you believe in Jesus?: I believe that Jesus existed and that he was a great prophet.
Do you believe in Satan?: I believe in human nature.
Do you believe in Heaven?: I believe in different levels of heaven but no heaven on a spiritual plane.
Do you believe in Hell?: Hell is in our minds.
If you died tomorrow what do you believe will happen to you?: I believe that a time will pass and then I will be reincarnated.

~Morals~
Have you ever been drunk?: Yup.. last time I got drunk was the friday before Alexi was to leave for England.. oh boy.. I remember me rambling to Shawn about nothing over the phone.. I think I was even going to go over to his room.. but then I passed out.. and then Alexi called to check up on me.. and I cried and told him that I wanted him to come home.. then I passed out again.
Taken drugs?: Perscription drugs, yes..
Shoplifted?: Nope. Stolen?: Nia is not all about innocence.. yes I have stolen but that was back in high school and it wasn't often and I wasn't caught.
Tried to commit suicide?: I have committed suicide in my mind several million times.
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend?: Yeah, I tend to tell little white lies so that I will not hurt them.
Gotten into a fight?: In high school.. early part.. I was kinda a bully.
Are you more innocent or guilty?: I think that I am more innocent, I used to think that I was bad.. but then the more people I knew, the more I was aware that I am innocent.
Have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict?: No, I never had any druggie friends. Sure I have no doubt that there were druggies in the christian school that I went to but I never hung out with them.
Are you racist?: Nah, I believe that all people are equal.. unless they are idiots.. and then they are idiots. *lol*
Are you discriminatory to anyone?: I try to give everyone equal chances.
Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings?: I am extremely open minded.. I will not bash your beliefs and feelings so long as you are respectful of mine.

~Music~
Whats your fave style of music?: Anime, Jpop, Jrock, Alternative, 80s and Sappy love ballads.. those are what I like the best.
Do you play an instrument?: No, wish I had learned though.
Do you sing?: All the time, especially in the shower.
Whats your fave band?: DURAN DURAN! *falls over* That must be a trick question.
Why?: Three reasons, Nick's make-up, John's looks and Simon's voice. *Falls over*
Have you met them before?: I would -kill- to meet them.
Why did you buy them?: Because of my favorite song, Ordinary World.. my anthem.

~Personality~
Are you funny or serious?: More funny then serious but serious when I have to be.
>i>Creative or not?:</i> Creative to a fault
Logical thinker or lateral thinker?: Days = Logical / Nights = Lateral
Are you outgoing or shy?: Shy when you first meet me, outgoing everything after that.
Are you lazy or active?: Lazy.. very much so.
Are you a naturally hyperactive person?: Goddess no.

~Looks~
Are you happy with the way you look?: Very. I am not beautiful but I am not ugly. I am interesting looking.
What would you change?: My nose.. *bleahs* it is beakish.
Do you wear makeup regularly?: Back at Mountain Home I do..
Do you have a large wardrobe?: I don't spend thousands on clothes but I do like to appear presentable.

~Embarassing moments~
Your all time most embarassing moment?: When I flashed the entire courtyard in 9th grade.. because of a stupid incriminating picture.. sheesh.. high school, the "speculative" years. *heh's*
Ever giggled like an idiot?: Giggling like an idiot is my specialty. *blahs*
Ever embarassed yourself and pretended nothing happened?: I am the Queen of playing stuff off... usually do that when I trip and fall (which is alot since I am a klutz)
Ever tripped in front of someone you liked?: Oooh yes I have.. but usually that is staged so that they will catch me.. of course there are the idiots that don't get it and I end up falling flat on my face (I.E Matt Cross.)
Ever said something really stupid?: I have things called "theories" which are little inanities cloaked as philosophy.
Ever snorted while laughing?: Never.. my laugh is distinctive but not in that way.
Ever fallen off a bed?: When I was younger.. I still have a scar by my mind to remind me of that episode.
Ever sleepwalked?: I did when I was younger.
Ever sleeptalked?: I do that frequently.. I have left Alexi totally confused by what I say in my sleep.

~Memories~
Whats your best memory?: Hey Bader sent me "Star Wars Cantina" Song by Wierd Al.. *yay's* Okay well I have so many memories.. I think my best memory.. well one of them that stands out would be when I got to yell out Matt Cross and his sheepish look on his face that replaced the usually stoic look. It was definitely very satisfying.
Worst?: I have one memory that I would erase completely
Do you have a good memory?: Yes I do.. I have a memory like an elephant.. I remember dates, details and Alexi calls me hsi personal secretary.
  • Current Music
    "Notorious" by Duran Duran
Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered

~So many but nobody calls.. can't be alone when the darkness falls~

Setzer: *stands there* Come on.. I want a songfic.. I mean Magus has 3 million.. so does your other characters.. why can't I! *whines and pleads and begs* I mean you even wrote a hentai songfic for him.. how fair is that.
Nia: I will see what I can do however I am busy.. *trails off*
Setzer: *demands* With what?
Nia: *points to Anton who sitting at a vanity putting on makeup* It's drag queen night.. you wanna play?
Anton: *grins lecherously* Yeah.. we can put a pretty purple wig on you.. and a frilly ruffly dress.
Setzer: NO! *sighs and goes back to play with his airship* You guys are hopeless.
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I just wanna have a songfic.. *wiggly anime teary eyes*
Nia: *walks over and gives Chibi Setzer a hug* I will see what I can do.
Setzer: *snurfles* You promise? *hopeful eyes*
Nia: Of course.. but I just don't want to put you to a song that fits.. I haven't heard yet a song that could represent your unique personality.
Setzer; *clings to Nia* Kay.. I understand.

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Well I have been looking through pics of my new crush, Jack Davenport. *falls over* Oh my goddess he is such a sweet tart.. I swear I could glomp him all up.. hurray for gay opera guys. (though in real life he isn't gay..*_*) Why do I like gay guys so much?

Because I find them non-threatening. Everyone here knows that I generally have a fear of men.. not hatred just hesitancy.. You have to be really special for me to feel comfortable around you or even talking to you. (if the reader is a male) I instinctually know if you are to be trusted.. the guys that I know can't be trusted I will shy away from and I won't even speak to. The male race have screwed me over in both the literal and figurative sense and there were times in my childhood where I would scream and cry being left alone in a room with a man.

Of course eye candy is eye candy... and I like eye candy and I enjoy male beauty.. I just don't -trust- it exactly.
  • Current Music
    "Lady Xanax (mel's song)" by Duran Duran