December 19th, 2001

Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered

~Melodies of Life - Magus (Novel not RP)~

~ChronoTrigger Fanfiction alert~

(This comes from the novel that I am working on. I know that this is a Final Fantasy song and this is a ChronoTrigger fanfiction.. I can't help it, this is a song fic you could say. Enjoy.)

"Alone for awhile,
I've been searching through the dark
For traces of the love you left,
Inside my lonely heart.
To win by picking up the pieces that remain,
Melodies of life,
Love's lost refrain."


Magus stood there at the funeral byre where his beloved Corrine Graie lay so peaceful in her death. Reluctant to move yet not wanting to leave to give Toma Levin and Ozzie, Slash and Flea a chance to bow over her form. Tears had not come since the night he took her soul under the watchful eye of the Zeal moon. All for the sake of Lavos and a 'lost' cause, looking down and seeing his sadness taking shape in the lifeless form of his beloved. No more would she breath, look at him in adoration or love, or chastise him for the treatment of his minions. There was nothing that he could do to bring her back and forever seemed like a bleak prospect when he knew that he couldn't be with her. Everything he held inside and clutched the pure white handkerchief in his hand before he left it softly slip from his fingers, to the ground in a fluttery whisper of gauze.

Toma noticed the handkerchief dropped by Magus and stooped to pick it up once he reached his best friend's side. He coughed and held it out to Magus with a soft tranquil smile. "She was beautiful.. you were the lucky one to have been the one that she loved." Toma murmured softly and averted his eyes from Corrine's lifeless form, he didn't want to look on her too much, better to remember as if she were alive.

"Why didn't she take the life that I offered?" Magus uttered weakly as he once again slipped the gauze into his fingers and looked down at the nearly see-through fabric.

"Because she saw worth in your visions."

"Why can't I see that worth now that she is gone?"

"Our paths they diverge,
Though I cannot say just why,
We met, we left, we held on fast,
And then we said goodbye.
And who hear the echoes of stories never told,
Let them ring outloud,
Til they unfold."


Magus emmerged from the temple, still holding the handkerchief. Eyes still dry as they searched the winter sky. A few snow drifts fell around him as bleak melancholy enfolded his soul. There was no life, not only in the surrounding area.. but in his soul. The trees held no leaves, not even a sprout of grass fought through the ground. Only then he allowed himself to cry a few very real crystalline tears. They fell down his cheek, leaving traces of dampness that soon turned to ice. The world would know.. they would remember.. he would remember..

"In my dearest memories,
I see you reaching out to me.
Though you're gone,
I still believe you can call out my name"


There he was.. summouning Lavos to extract revenge. Coldly calm and serious, he called Lavos into being to make the sacrifice that Corrine made justifiable. If it didn't succeed then at least he would die, he would join Corrine in that abyss of death, that is if he wasn't tossed into hell first. It didn't matter, all that mattered was that Corrine's death -mean- something. Power accumulated in the room and he felt its seductive surge. Then he heard voices behind him right after the portal had been created. He turned around, sweeping his cape behind him and looked enigmatically at the intruders.

"Nice timing. kissed any princesses yet, Frog?"

"Voice from the past,
Joining yours and mine.
Heading up the layers of harmony,
And so it goes on and on.
Melodies of Life,
To the sky beyond the flying breeze..
Forever and beyond."


He suceeded, the shock of it coursed through his body as he stood off to himself, watching Chrono, Marle and the rest of the group rejoice and jump up and down. There was a glow in him though he didn't show it outwardly. He took out from under his tunic the necklace that held the ring, looking down at it with unreadible eyes. His wedding ring that lay close to his heart where it belonged. It wasn't only his victory.. or theirs.. it was hers.

"So what are you going to do next?" He heard a voice ask him, he turned around to look into Lucca's scholarly countenance, she was almost nice.. certainly not Corrine but there was a practicality about her which he respected.

"I am going to search for Schala.." Magus murmured and hastily tucked the necklace back underneath his tunic where it warmed his skin. That was what Corrine would of wanted him to do, to somehow right what had become wrong in the past.

"She might be dead after what happened at the Undersea Palace." Lucca said.

He felt the necklace give off a surge of power and smiled enigmatically. "I don't think she is dead." His own subtle declaration of hope.

"So far and away,
See the bird as it flies by.
Riding through the shadows,
Of the clouds up in the sky.
I've laid my memories and dreams upon the wings,
Let them go and see what tomorrow brings.


Standing there on the ruins of Zeal was Schala and his mother. They looked as if Lavos had not touched them and he wondered if by some strange coincidence the destruction of Lavos changed the past as well as the future. He stood there, looking at them before Schala noticed him.

"Janus!?" The woman with long purple hair called with disbelief as she ran toward him, her arms spread out wide as she caught him into her arms. He didn't return the embrace, he just bowed his head and let himself be held by this woman, by his sister. For so long they had been kept apart by fate but now they were together... brother and sister.

"Magus.." He insisted softly as his childhood name sounded foreign to him. He then reluctantly put his arm around her in a return embrace before she pulled away and looked at him.

"You have changed." She said with softly unreadable eyes.

In your dearest memories,
Do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close,
And now leaves me behind.


His mother, Queen Ileana Zeal walked up to him and looked at him, there was a bit of the aspect of the mother in her.. something that had been missing when he was a child, when she had been obsessed with Schala's magic.

"Do you forgive me, Janus?" She asked, almost afraid to hold her son for fear that he would look on her with hatred. All she saw was faint pity in those chameleon eyes, first grey, now brown.

Corrine would want him to forgive her, he thought to himself as he looked at the woman who betrayed so many dreams of a young boy. Perhaps there was hope, there was a future where he could love her and look up to her as a mother.

"I forgive you." Was all he said as he watched out of the corner of his eye Alfador bound out and rub up against his leg with purring glee. Recognizing in him the child "Janus" that he had been.

This was a chance for absolutions.. and new beginnings.

Voice from the past,
Joining yours and mine.
Heading up the layers of harmony.
And it so goes on and on,
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying breeze..
Forever and on.


A lone figure, he stood on the balcony of Zeal Palace and looked upon New Zeal and the shining lights of Millenia City in the distance. The sun was setting and casting a silvery sheen onto the tall platinum spires of the towers. From death sprouted life even when he had doubted it with all his heart and soul, so sick in his grief he had been. There were beautiful memories of Corrine, of their time on earth.. she hadn't just left him with nothing, but with a future.. with hope. With memories of their love. He held to the bit of love that his soul had tenaciously clung to and knew that would be enough.. enough to carry him through an eternity.

"Someday.. Corrine Linnea Graie.. someday.."

If I should leave this lonely world behind,
Your voice will still remember our melody.
Now I know we'll carry on,
Melodies of Life can circle round and grow dear in our hearts..
As long as we remember.."


(*saps* Okay I am done. I love that song.. *sniffles*)
(And no, it isn't the end.. *eg*)

-Written by Nia Westphal
  • Current Music
    "Melodies of Life" from FF8.. on a loop
Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered

~Believe it or not, there's life after high school~

1. Song(s) that reminds you of waking up in the morning:
"I Take the Dice" by Duran Duran. "Big Bang Generation" by Duran Duran, "It only takes a Minute" by Take That & "Coconut" by SmileDK. (They are all really upbeat and fast.)
2. Song that's best to drive to work/school to:
"Chorus" by Erasure, "Bizarre Love Triangle" and "60 miles an hour" by New Order, and "Follow your heart" by Thompson Twins

6. Song that's best to listen to at night at home:
"Gravity of Love" by Enigma, "Kiss in the Dark" by Masami Okui & "Ordinary World by Duran Duran

7. Song that reminds you of your childhood:
"Ordinary World" by Duran Duran, "Fortune & Fame by Naked Eyes, "Walking on the Milky Way" by OMD, "Holding back the Tears" by Take That, "Girl Raw" by John Taylor, "Was it Worth it?" by Pet Shop Boys, "Open Road" by Gary Barlow

9. Song that's best for when it is raining:
"Ordinary World" & "A Matter of Feeling" By Duran Duran, "See You" by Depeche Mode, "The Promise" by Arcadia, "Who Can Stop the Rain" by Thompson Twins, "Boku no Ucchuu de kimi ga Iru" by Koyasu Takehito

10.Song that reminds you that you're in love:
"Somebody" by Depeche Mode, "Serious" and "My Antartica" by Duran Duran, "The Flame" by Arcadia, "Perfect Love" by Breathe, "Lay your hands on me" by Thompson Twins, "Two bits of Pieces" from Xenogears, "Slide" by Goo Goo Dolls, "Nobody Else" by Take That, "I knew I loved you" by Savage Garden. "Only You" by Yaz, "Kiss on my List" by Hall & Oates

11. Song that reminds you of traveling:
"Everything Changes" by Take That, "Rio" by Duran Duran, "To the Moon & Back" by Savage Garden, "Behind the Wheel" & "Shake the Desease" by Depeche Mode, "Perfect Day" by Thompson Twins.

12. Song that reminds you that everything is wonderful:
"New Moon on Monday", "My Own Way", "Shadows on your Side" "Notorious" by Duran Duran, "Everything Counts" "Personal Jesus" by Depeche Mode, "Reunion" & "Chorus" by Erasure, "Walking on the Milky Way" by OMD, "Eyes of a Child" by Naked Eyes, "Sowing the Seeds of Love" by Tears for Fears, "Say a Prayer" by Breathe.

13. Song that makes you cry:
"Ordinary World", "Come Undone", "Seventh Stranger", "Save a Prayer", "Outta my Mind", "Somebody Else Not Me" by Duran Duran, "The Promise" & "Goodbye is Forever" by Arcadia, "Sacred", "Home", "See You". "Enjoy the Silence" by Depeche Mode, "Ship of Fools" by Erasure, "If you Leave" by OMD, " Always something there to remind me" & "Fortune & Fame" by OMD, "Hands to Heaven" & "Where Angels Fear" by Breathe, "Who can stop the rain" by Thompson Twins, "Tears Roll Down (Laid so low)" by Tears for Fears, "Lovesong" by the Cure, "Its a Sin" by Pet Shop Boys, "Black Balloon" by Goo Goo Dolls, "Dreams in Digital" by Orgy, "Something I can Never Have" by NIN, "Angel" by Sarah McLachlan, "The Old Ways" by Loreena McKennitt, "The Second Element" by Sarah Brightman, "Two Bits of Pieces" from Xenogears, "Kuroi Tsuki" by Satou Akemi, "Fall of Tears" by L'arc~en~Ciel, "Sayonara" by Gackt, "Boku no Uchuu kimi ga Iru" by Koyasu Takehito, "Melody of the Lute" from Final Fantasy Pray.

18. Song that turns you on:
"Hungry Like the Wolf", "All Along the Water", "UMF" by Duran Duran, "In Your Room" by Depeche Mode, "Universe" by Savage Garden

Music Groups
1. Favorite music group: Duran Duran, Depeche Mode, New Order, Arcadia, Breathe, Take That, Savage Garden, When in Rome, Goo Goo Dolls, Pet Shop Boys, Placebo, Orgy, NIN, Erasure, Yaz, Robbie Williams, Loreena McKennitt, Hall & Oates, Sarah McLachlan, Thompson Twins, Garbage, Naked Eyes, OMD, Johnny Hates Jazz, Tears for Fears, Sting, Howard Jones, Rick Astley, Oasis, Enigma, Masami Okui, Koyasu Takehito, L'arc~en~Ciel, Gackt, Satou Akemi, S.E.S

2. Favorite music group when you were 13: Duran Duran, Breathe & Thompson Twins.

3. Music group that you liked then but do not anymore: Spice Girls & Backstreet Boys (back in the good old days before I graduated from high school.)

4. Music group that you still like after years and years: Duran Duran, Breathe, Rick Astley, Hall & Oates, Thompson Twins, Howard Jones, Savage Garden

5. Music group that you are embarrassed that you like: N'SYNC.. yes I like some of their music.. I won't vocally admit it though.

1. Sexiest male voice: Simon Le' Bon, David Gahan, Brian Molko, Gary Barlow and the rest I don't know their names. *falls over*

2. Sexiest female voice: Sarah McLachlan, Loreena McKennitt, Masami Okui, Satou Akemi, Belinda Carlisle.. that is all I can think of. *mrowrs*

3. Most annoying female voice: Britney Spears, Christina Aquilera (I don't know how she spells her name! *blahs) and that is all I can think of)

4. Most annoying male voice: All the guys from Backstreet Boys. *blahs* Oh sick me out!

6. Female singer's voice that makes you cry: Sarah McLachlan and Loreena McKennitt/

Your current top ten Songs out of order -

"Ordinary World" -Duran Duran
"Fallen Angel" by Duran Duran
"Strangelove" by Depeche Mode
"Walking on the Milky Way" by OMD
"Gravity of Love" by Enigma
"The Flame" by Arcadia
"Domino Dancing" by Pet Shop Boys
"Rinbu Revolution" by Masami Okui
"Special K" by Placebo
"Save a Prayer" by Breathe
Zoicite☆For all I carry are murdered

~Those that came before~

My topic of today's LJ rant? *heh's* Squaresoft heroines and my absolute favorites.

Why you ask? Well I have been to alot of different sites in which people flame other characters. Personally I find that is wrong, each character is good in their own way, just some are more likable. I guess I will start with FF2. My favorite heroine would be Rydia there.

Why Rydia. Because she has a deep compassionate streak that mythical creatures seem to latch on to, hence why she could command the loyalty of Ifrit, Shiva and yes even Ashura. She is able to enter the land of summouned monsters because of it, and even stay there.. and then she emmerges a beautiful and spirited young woman. Sure Rosa was okay if you liked a female that was forever getting herself kidnapped. That works for some people, just not for me. Oh yeah Rydia's little spats with Edge is particularly amusing especially when you know that they are going to get married later. (And in my fanfic they have a daughter named Kaydia Eblanes who eventually married Stephan Gabbiani.. Setzer's son. *snickers*)

Celes Chere from FF3. Ooh goodness yet another strong female who wasn't going to take shit from any man. Edgar tries to hit on her, no such luck.. and she tries to deny her feelings for Locke and eventually they do realize how much they mean, but not before Celes proves to Locke that she can stand on her own two feet. Oh yeah and the scene at the Opera house further cemented it for me. "Oh my hero.. so far away now." Truly a sappy moment.

*cracks knuckles* Aerith Gainsbourough. Yes I loved her with a passion, she was strong, beautiful and sacrificial. Here that, Sacrificial. Now knowing how I adore to play characters that think of others before themselves, it is no surprise that I would love Aerith. I could personally care less if Aerith got together with Cloud, I preferred Sephiroth anyways.. Let Tifa have Cloud. But Aerith, oh the tears I cried when she died.. but I wasn't sorry. It enriched the storyline, (And after that part, everything in the game went to hell.. but that is my opinion)

Selphie Tilmitt from FF8. Rinoa.. she just annoyed me for some reason. She had a bad attitude and while she does get better in the game, Selphie makes me smile with her "lets go get em" attitude.. and did you check out her little online diary when you are playing the game. Damn, that was so cute. I mean every game has to have a character that sort of spreads sunshine into the hearts of the other characters.. Aerith did it for 7 and Relm did it for 3.. Just gimme my Selphie plushie! *waaaaaaaii's*

FF9.. hands down, Garnet. It was nice to have a heroine kinda shy and introverted like Garnet. And through the game watching her emmerge with the help of Zidane. Another thing was that she wasn't pursing the main character.. which was a change after the last two games. She was actually resisting Zidane's advances. Maybe she was holding herself out for Kuja.. I know I would of! *winks*

Elyham Van Houten.. *shivers* Again she starts out a complete bitch and then ends up very sacrificial and giving. I loved the little reincarnated love story that Fei and Elly had going, it enriched the game. I only hope that the game Xenosaga can compete with Xenogears. *crosses fingers* But anyways Elly starts out a soldier of Solaris and ends up being like a Mother of Nisan.. very humanitarian. *le sighs*

ChronoTrigger had no main female character that I liked with the exception of Lucca and even then I didnt like her as much as I liked Magus. *mrrs*

CronoCross - Harle! *hee's* Oh my goodness she stole my heart. I have a thing for jester girls. *star eyes* And the french accent. *shivers* Ooooh.. Lets just say that I love Harle to death. (I also liked Guile because he -was- Magus to me, I don't care what anyone else says.)

FF10.. I can make a vauge prediction.. I predict I will like Lulu.. or Yuna.. all depends on the personality.. if Rikku is like Selphie then maybe her.. well damn it I just have to play the game, don't I?
  • Current Music
    "She blinded me with Science" by Thomas Dolby