Jyuu (jyuufish) wrote,

: 30 days of music meme - day 28 :

Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty.

Orgy - Eva

Just as a song to remind you of someone was about my grandmother who passed away, so is this song. Except this is the darker and more emo side (unfortunately). It was my twentieth year that she passed away, I was in tech school at Lackland AFB and on May 31st at around 10 o'clock I got a knock on the door. Now our curfew was nine but I hadn't gone to bed yet and I wondered who it could be, it was one of our Military Training Leaders and a Chaplain who took me outside and told me that my grandmother had passed away. Which was perhaps the singular most devestating thing that had really ever happened to me. I cried a good bit, got on the phone with my girlfriend at the time, Mel and that started a long black pall over the summer in which I battled a rather fierce depression (which is indeed rare for me).

The words "Never got a chance to say goodbye" just prevailed heavily in my whole thought process because I didn't. The last time I ever saw my grandmother was at the Olive Garden for my "going into the military" goodbye party. I knew her condition wasn't all that good, but I had been hoping that she was going to hang in there until september when I got into the Recruiters assistance program, I guess youthful hope put into play, I'm really a bit more realistic now.

That was the summer of win, in which my father rifled through my stuff and pretty much forced me out of the closet and my girlfriend cheated on me. It's not a summer that I really want to dwell upon and it's really no wonder that I acted the way I did when I forced myself into a relationship with Alexi. I really wanted to take a break on myself, and most important I didn't want to have to deal with anything but the here and now.

Wow I posted alot about this song.

Day 01 - Your favorite song
Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that currently intrigues you
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that makes you wet
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you love to sing along to
A song that you think everyone should listen to
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

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