For the past couple of days I have been hunting through livejournals in hopes of finding Mel, finding her, perhaps see how she is doing and if she is okay, (dare I say, happy) You know, I can't forget her, I can't forget how much she meant to me before we were going out. I would like to be on speaking terms with her again, just for memories sake. I wish I could wipe away that we had gone out though I know I shouldn't because had we not gone out, I would not be inspired to join the military and I would not have met my husband, Alexi.. whom I love very very much.
It was only too bad that situations unfolded like they did, allowing room for hurt, jealousy and retaliation. It is enough that from the ashes of me and Mel's relationship, I made a friend.. I.E Angue.
So many memories, so many good times...
A whole world now destroyed even though I have made myself another world. I had to rebuild those dashed dreams and hopes for one cannot survive without dreams and wishes.