The clincher that sort of gave me an episode of being freaked out was the fact that the power supply in Elessari (my computer, named for the continent on which Sylvia resides) fried itself out. (I could make jokes about Enigma finally destroying the continent but that would be in bad taste) So I need to get a new power supply. Then I just broke down.. because it was like nothing in the day had gone even remotely right.
So my activities online are going to be completely curtailed because the laptop I am using is sort of not as punked out as Elessari. (But thank you pimp_kitten for letting me use his laptop.) But tonight I'm ordering a new power supply, I already have it picked out and everything.
Both Mish and Alexi advise me I should quit, but unfortunately I am not going to do that. I will refuse (not apply) for a part time regular position, they can keep me at 20 hours.. in fact that'd be bliss. Maybe then I wouldn't come home mentally and physically tired.
I was thinking of writing something up for my writing journal of shitan (Hey Johnny, I think I wrote a Sylvia piece for up there.. but it's more pertaining to the Mystics then anything else).